hello everyone

friends , maine ees jindgi ko bhut kareb se jiya hai aaj main apko khud k bare main batata hun , maine 2003 main apna business start kiya tha. bas meri ak positive thinking thi , josh tha per experience k nam pe mere pass kuch nhi tha , maine risk liya aur thodi si miskilon k bad bagwan ne mera bhut sath diya aur aaj 2008 main main ak bhut safal businessman hun , mere pass sab kuch hai , per fir bhi main satisfied nhi hun apni life se , aisa nhi ki muje aur paisa chahiye , bhut sara paisa chahiye balki een char salon main jo hua uske karan main khud ko alone feel krta hun. jab maine apna business start kiya tab main ak sarif aur eemandar ladka tha , maine 15-16 logon ki bhut help ki aur dosti ki relationship ko nibhate hue sabko sache man se help ki , per problem ye hai k aaj vo sab log mujse nafrat karte hain , unka kahna hai main selfish hun , per vo sab log aaj jis mukam per hain usme mera yogdan agar jyada nhi to eetna to hai hi k maine sache dost samajker unki madad ki thi , unko apne profit ka jariya na bana k unki help ki thi . ab jabki unme se koi bhi mere sath nhi hai to muje ye lagta hai k aakhir kahan mujse bhool hue , aur kahan maine unko kho diya, ye bhi sach hai k un logon ne muje bhut use kiya , muje hamesha atm (all time money) samjas aur cheat bhi kiya , per muje sabse jyada problem ye ho gyi hai k meri thinking , meri nature bilkul badal gyi hai ,main pahle bhut polite , kind hota tha per ab nhi hun , kisi ki help karte hue der lagta hai , chid chida ho gya hun , apne business main bhi man nhi laga paa reha hun , her time vahi baten man ko kuredti rehti hain , kisi k pass aisi koi bat nhi jis se mera man ye man le ki main galat tha , per main kisi ko bhi satisfy nhi ker paya ye bhi utna hi sahi hai , plz muje ees duvidha se nikalen aur muje apni galti ka ehsas karwa den abhi tak main ye samjta hun k maine kabhi unme se kisi ka bhi bura nhi kiya ya ye prove ho k main sahi hun , tabhi man shant hoga , aajkal khud ko dosi manta hua ........ ajeeb sa ho gya hun..............